So I did something and I’m not sure if I’m happy about or not yet.
This morning, something overtook my body and re-signed me up for Insta. Yes I know, I’ve been oozing with happiness since I left a couple months back. But, to be very honest, I miss seeing people’s pictures. I miss seeing what my siblings are up to, my cousin’s who live in other states…pictures make me feel like I’m a little more connected to their lives even when I don’t talk to/ see these people every day.
Half my insides feel like a failure right now. I didn’t need to come back. I told people I wouldn’t come back…yet, here I am…back. I’m a LIAR! I guess this is what happens when you’re 2 cups of strong coffee in by 7am. And maybe a couple cookies…PS I made my fave cookies last night.
Anyway, 1/4 of my insides are super thrilled to be back. Because you know, it’s fun to see what people are up to most of the time. 1/4 of my insides are like OH SHIT, wtf do I caption my first post as…it must be epic. (See, here’s the exact reason I left, what am I doing!?).
As you can see the struggle inside is real. All about a silly app on my phone. But I’m gonna give it a week. If I find myself hoovering over my phone all hours of the day, I will have to leave again and that could just get confusing. UGH. YAY. IDK!
So, it’s Saturday…I accidentally left my alarm on for 5:30 am…but that’s OK, it’s so fun to be awake. Ruthie and I fell asleep at 8 PM last night hugging and when I woke up this morning I was like “OMG, what happened? How did I get here? Did I even brush my teeth?” See, that’s what happens when you wake up early during the week…by the time Friday rolls around you’re like “OK bed, I’m coming for you!”
So here we are, Saturday morning, the sun looks like it’s going to be bright today, we have warm coffee, and endless dreams and goals to catch. (LOL no clue who I am today).
Let me tell you about this first week in 2018. I feel like a whole new person. I’m suddenly not scared to try new things…I mean that’s a small lie but I’m more willing to try new things. Like ride the bus. Holy cow. I started riding the bus to work on Tuesday and it’s the best thing ever. Someone takes you to work (it’s like a chauffeur), picks you up from work, gives you a nice warm seat, and allows you to catch up on reading every morning and night. It’s actually a blast and I’m super pissed at myself I didn’t try riding the bus earlier in my life. Shoutout to my co-worker Amanda for teaching me all the bus etiquette (you don’t scan your pass until getting off in the PM, people will look at you like you’re an amateur).
Riding the bus also allowed me to walk to the gym after work one night and it was magical. I felt like a big city girl (even though I’m the furthest thing from that). I popped on my flannel backpack and headed towards the river. Mind you it was about 0 degrees out so I was pretty much the only soul out and about Tuesday afternoon. I walked over the river (not literally you guys, sheesh, there’s a bridge) and through the woods to NE Minneapolis and arrived at the gym cold but excited and thrilled to have had some fresh air.
As for workouts, they’ve been good to pretty good so far this new year. I’ve been working on my strict pull ups and they are surely becoming my favorite movement. Nothing like pulling your entire body up to a bar and feeling like a complete badass. I’m itching to get outside for a run but since the temps have been literally 0 degrees for weeks, I’ve been stuck on a treadmill. I’m also trying to make up / do more workouts that involve cardio and strength…I think I’m going to give this a try later:
Row 1000m AFAP
…then…50-40-30-20-10 reps of
Slamball Box Step-Ups
Slamball Hang 2 Overhead
*complete 3 pullups after ever movement (50 step-ups, 3 pullups, 50 H2OH, 3 pullups…etc)
Row 1000m AFAP
It might take me like 100 minutes to complete but TBH it looks like a blast and something I’m excited about.
Alright friends, time to get ready for the day. Have a lovely weekend!